The Balance Sheet

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Live every moment, laugh every day. Love beyond words.

Accountants draw up balance sheets and I have discovered that we ordinary  mortals can do so too. When my life went completely out of control the first time due to paranoid schizophrenia in our home, I drew a line down the middle of a large sheet of paper and gave each column a title – NEGATIVE on the left – POSITIVE on the right side. First, I made a list of all the bad things in  my life like:

  • schizophrenia,
  • suffering
  • our son’s loss of his sanity and ultimately his peace of mind
  • stigma
  • our home that was no longer peaceful and serene

On the other side of the page, I began listing the good things I had in my life and this is what I discovered:-

  • I had a healthy husband and two healthy daughters.
  • We had a roof over our heads
  • We had a garden so I could see foliage from every window or door.
  • We heard birdsong on awakening every morning
  • I had my writing which could transport me to any corner of this world or a make-believe one.
  • I had a supportive husband
  • We had good friends
  • We had a car so could continue driving out into the countryside sometimes
  • Both my husband and I had hobbies and varied interests.

So, my positive list outnumbered the negative one which gave me a great deal to think about.


If you feel a smile begin

Don’t leave it undetected.                            

Start an epidemic

Get the world infected.

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4 thoughts on “The Balance Sheet

  1. mike7sedona

    Quite a balancing act – the positives knock out the negatives and the net result is a sigh of relief with a big smile! 🙂

  2. alifeofmentalillness

    As someone being treated for schizophrenia I too did the balance sheet of positives and negatives. That’s one of the reasons I started blogging a couple years ago, because I could still explain what was going on to others who don’t know exactly what a mental illness does to a person. Good posts. Keep up the good work.


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