Do you scan the obituaries and feel jealous of the dead?

SERENADE 2 SENIORS

ALZHEIMER’S DISEASE

Do you wake up every morning, find it hard to lift your head?

Do you scan the obituaries and feel jealous of the dead?

It’s like living on a cliff side never knowing when you’ll dive

I feel a sort of buzzing like bees make in a hive.

 

Imagine how it feels to see the world that once was clear

That goes from white to gray then black, tomorrow’s filled with fear.

I do my best to make each day as pleasant as I can

And keep myself as busy as any other man.

 

There’s a sensation that I’m screaming yet I never make a sound,

Or the feeling that I’m falling yet I never hit the ground.

It keeps on rushing at me, day by day by day

Can you imagine what it’s like to have to live this way?

 

I know my wife is hurting but she doesn’t let it show

Her smile covers her feelings and she continues with the flow.

                                                                                      

My late husband imparted the above over a period of time before he was unable to describe his feelings or speak much and I jotted it all down and then turned it into the above.